Here's what you said in your post:
"...and i cant but notice that everyone seems to "hate me" so i would like a divorce, how do i delete my account/posts or i just should stop writing?"
Deadeye then closed your account/banned you, as you wished.
Take a look at your posts under your old name and see if you come across a bit spiky.
Apart from the occasional person, most people here are agreeable, and I've seen communities far, far worse than this.
Personally, going only on your posts, it looks to me as if you don't know how to communicate with others at a decent level.
How old are you?
Remember, people's opinions of you can only be based on what you write on the forums, and how you behave to other people's comments.
Other than that, there's not a lot else to say.
I hope you're only a kid, because at least then it's almost excusable.